Friday, September 7, 2012

Bound for late night home...

This mist in the air-
a sense of a slight chill,
The moon soaked by the wet clouds
On the lonely road ghostly feel,
And the mild purr of the engine horsepower under clutch...
the breeze with nightly kisses of fairies from the sky despatched...
And the rapid run of the dots of lights
To the opposite direction...blazing flight...

I am just loving it...
Every bit of this return
Late night home I would meet
At the possible next turn...

I am singing a song way back home
Homeward bound as I am
I am awake running the road
While the world has fallen dumb...

O what a way it is to return home
Late...tired...yet gay and fine...
O what a way it is to see her on wait at the table to dine...

Doubly born...

To be lost in a forest
Enveloped by the mist and fog
Where cloudlets come down to rest
Their wings after the flight...
To be lost in the stories of the sleepy meadow
Where dewdrops accumulate on blades, bits of rainbow...
Is like savouring life
In its truest form...
Is like in single life
Doubly born...

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Take me back to the womb...

Put me into a wrap
Of your long gown black
And bring me all the studs
Of starlets like newest diamond buds...
Put me into your lap
And the whole world so boisterous
Jarring spokes...flattened tubes...hissing down
Just by your flowing cover everything collapse...
Put me into balmy sleep
By your black hair in which glowworms peep
Send me rest...send me refuge true
Drop on me nightly mist and dew...
Take me to the time primordial
When chaos wasn't born to dictate the real...
Take me to the prenatal insulated state
When sounds and sights through liquid of womb me met...

Take me back...
Back to the womb...
Take me to the sack
Floating me where caught first the heavenly tune...
And sang forever silently closing eyes...
Take me back where only dreams of birth lie...

the archeologist...

The tiny drops of rain
Cried in vain
Clinging to the rails
Of the staircase
Of the palace...
So majestic ...grand
As if a white marvellous land...

But without people so empty
And standing at the feet
Of the flight of stairs
That rose up to the upper layers
Of the sky...cloudy with colors dark deep
He thought what for he had come there
What promises he had to keep
After so many years that glided by
After the terminal kisses and long drawn good bye...

Then he looked up the golden dome
And a pink floating form
Came to his sight
At one corner of the dome bright...
A pink saree's end perhaps or a flag
He his hypnotised legs up the stairs dragged
As if that piece of cloth aflutter
Beckoned him to climb the marble ladder
Of hopes returning again with force
For which he wheeled away several miles from his determined course...
For which he spent hours by the lake
For which needlessly he made too apparent mistakes...
For which the sky, the river,the trees, the hills...
All his mind only impressions sealed
Quite permanent...indelible like some ink
Painted on fingers which to his digressive paths him always linked...

So he climbed the hypnotised man
He climbed not knowing after that time where he would stand...
Only he felt he was there like an archeologist
To unearth history from the surface of marble and brick...
He felt by his spatula he would carbon date
What is the exact age of his pinkish fate...
So he moved up to reach the saree's end
To where his search to the non physical world bent...

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

What can i give back?

Since morn the rain has been
Weaving a pattern of love...it seemed
As if it fell on me being sent
By so many beautiful souls...
Living so near...
Some even traversed miles far...
I know...
Just like the clouds of late monsoon
Travelling acres of green...
And perhaps sands and snow...
I know...
O how much of love
You send...
This day...this moment...
Supercharging me...my every bit of nerve...my veins...
O how you fill me with a wonderous sense...
I cry...
And tears so happy
Never did I notice...
(And I don't unnecessarily lie...)
They come out flowing with so much of ease...
That I feel ashamed to wipe those drops...
I just let the rivery stream flow...
From my heart...to my toe...
As if I have been bathed
After a long gap of years...with the passion unsaid...

Now its my turn to give back...
Some thing at least...sure...
But what can I possibly give back?
I am turned such a debtor...
By you...your morning scraps...
Your evening pings...
Your noonday dreams...

And then I felt...
My hands trembled...
My heart throbbed...
From eyes water dropped-
In shapes of silvery beads...
And I know...
All these
Are just the rightest signs
Of giving you back all that is so far mine...

Monday, September 3, 2012

The metro girl...

The whiff of sudden air
Always let me know
You are there
In that compartment of metro...

Announcements made over address system
And the simultaneous automatic doors burst open
To let you out from the belly of the train
Reminds me always life's halts and stops
And how images underground pops
Out of busy city borne day...

And at the evening...
More and more crowd
Run up and down escalators...
Like columns of heads tired on return
To their favoured destinations...
I am reminded of you again
Your numbed feet...hazy brain...
Your forehead with beads of sweat
Your smudged up lipgloss...your flushed cheeks red...
Your dawn to dusk runs to and fro...
Your anxious stare at watch...your furrowed brow...
Your autorickshaw wait-
At the non scheduled spot...
Your phone losing charge...
You in traffic jam caught...

Everyday...day in and out
Metro trains remind me of you no doubt...
I can only admire this superwomanliness...
I gape awed seeing you running the life's race...

A tree like birth...

Felt so lost
And so tiny
In the midst of towering trees
Standing tall and strong yet aged right
With wisdom of the flowing breeze specially at night...
Which tell them tales without cease...

Stood underneath at the feet of them
Trying to grasp the meaning of living untamed...
To taste and savour how the beams of moon
Cause silver plating on them by loony tune...
Tried to fully understand
How they collect news in leaves from dust and sands...
How they assimilate opinionated claims
By their sap running like a column of liquid sense...
How they converse in whispers at night
Exchanging slokas of the brightest minds...
How they transfer every single bit of pulse
Of living to non living by being static cults
Of aging beautifully with a growth of knowledge...
As grow the souls of the ageless sages...

Felt so humbled...belittled...dismayed...
Being lost in the woods of trees so great...
Touched their trunks huge solid with cracked woody surface...
Felt how they all ravages of time witnessed...
As if they carry the crux of life...
As if they like stoic gulped down all the strife
And transmuted them into beauty and mirth...
Felt myself wishing to have a tree like birth...

Sunday, September 2, 2012

A search...a reverie

Since morning perhaps
There the subconscious
Planted in him the wish
To make the visit...
To that narrow lane
By the canal
To that stop...
Where he was once born
And saw the first light of the day
Thirty years back...
He thought even before taking the turn
The sharp bent ...where the light hit
To the wall pretty straight
That he would find everything the same
As he had left thirty years ago...
With great anticipation he made the turn
Excitement ripping him apart
Within...
He thought there that gandharaj would be seen
Standing as she used to be
With white blossoms under the shadow dim...
He thought soon he would hear
Children in giggles...cries and tears...
And out of that double storied house
Soon his playmate would run across
And pull him by his hands
To take him to that meadowy grass
And that bank of pond...
Where tadpoles wriggled like a black cloth broad...
He thought he would with nature's innocence bond
There after thirty years he gripped by memories fond...

But nay!
That was not to be...
Rows of houses collapsed all memory...
The gandharaj was not there
Only a brick ugly wall stood
And an electric post like a shock
His foolishness severely mocked...
A curious woman from a door
Looked at him...with crossed brow...
Another stood at the window
'Searching someone?' was the unuttered look
He with dubious sad confused state shook
His head sideways...
And then muttered within clumsily...
'No no none I came here to seek...but only me...'

Friday, August 31, 2012

Every one has roads within...

Every road has its own story
Don't you think so?
The road that runs the desert through
Is long hot sultry mirage like simmering...

And the one through the forest is cool
With long and dark shades full
Which play on the wayfarer's face and body
Like little touches so benign...

And there are roads also within
Both through desert sands and woods...
And we...all make journeys through them...
We all make journeys the same...

Thursday, August 30, 2012

transcendentalist of seventy seven

Now the knowledge has dawned on him even
He had been a transcendentalist of seventy seven...
the year of flood and artificial famine
was his year of birth and will always remain...
otherwise why this confusion? this unrest?
why this ritual of afternoon embrace?
why this tumult so unnerving?
why this search rising within?

He thought and closed his eyes
Standing still amidst blood and lies
and the city by him impalpably passed
Lousy generic codes filled fibre optics just...
A flash here...there a lightning struck
A halogen yellow went sudden dark...
A red Ducatti double exhaust dream
Like a supernova burnt his outer melanin
And he became so colorless white
A statue of God that fell just in sight
Standing amidst confusion so so quiet...

Madness in shape of blaring horns
black glassed kisses in cabs covered- unblown...
Vendors selling cheap spaghetti tops
Carts with apples freshened by rain drops...
Police guards hanging bellied pressing palms...
Quotes so godly straight from psalms...
All by him fleetingly passed
but him the transcendentalist they never touched...
He just chose to stand upright
eyes clasped closed...unopened tight...

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

telling you a lore of a city...

Telling you a lore of a city
being tilled and ploughed relentless
by earthmovers...gigantic cranes
which like monsters shake
the soil beneath and the sky they mock...
Those monsters by day look chivalric and by the night send waves of shock...

Telling you a lore of a lost eden
where trees no shades bear
only cacti with shapeless thorns prick and burden...
visions of life where with morn rise
but by night where they invariably die
like fallen leaves from withered skeletons...
Where sands and ashes fill grasslands like claustrophobic remnants
of morbid tirelessness so brute...

Telling you a story of utter loss
of a city -thrown for a toss
for sharks to grab with greedy teeth...
where smoke belching existence with expansion of boundaries meet...


pre dawn moment

The pebbles of the recent past
Have not yet gathered dust...
The bud of the morning late
is to bloom into flower yet...
The lake water blue glass
is yet to get the breeze's touch...
A pre-dawn moment is so still
So silent peaceful with serenity fills...
As if din and bustle are non existent
As if horns and chaos never civil life reigned...
As if wakeful restless had never torn
Pantheistic deity which the poet forlorn
Savoured full in his sublimated life...

It is the hour of sublime birth
Of inherent joy...genomic mirth
Which only beauty of silence can write
A pre dawn moment when comes with darkness bright...

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

The pen your name when writes...

With the thought of writing
Your name on this white page
I'm writing this...
After a long time
My pen has so wished...
To write your name
On the white page-
As I revisit
The days of liquid ink
And handmade paper that soak
Every impression made on it...

With the object of finding you
Once again I write
And I know that is another way
Of discovering myself right...


This sky...reminds...

This sky reminds me of autumn
So young...impulsive...gay
A fun filled boyish toy shopping day...
I walk back to hold my mother's finger
So many board games...red cars plastic on shelves when lingered;
Tempting new shoes on racks
Books opening Russian maps...
White kash flowers swinging down the grassy slope...
This sky fills me with autumnal hope-
Of finding my best friend's red tricycle making rumbling sounds
On asphalt...empty afternoon's playground bound...
Of sweet little bits of innocent dream-
Savouring alone a bit of chocopie or cream...
And the restlessness to reach that twin hills at the park
Where some genie would arrive after every sunset dark...
And the thought of flying a smart black and yellow kite
Ripping apart all contenders by its fast fiery flight...
And also of a balcony where the mellowed fairy would turn up
With cheeks powder puffed
And hair tied by ribbon pink oft...

Monday, August 27, 2012

I know...yes...i know...

Yes...I have faltered
But I know the course of stream can never be altered...
Yes...I am in a confounded mess
But I know fully how all these years
Poetry in you I desperately traced...
Yes...I know it all...
Where I rose...
And where I did fall...
Where and exactly at what hour
I know the smell of gandharaj flower
Encapsulated me...my soul...my pages of write...
And when did the moon shine on the water bright...
I know...yes...
I know...

I know what you sought in me...
And when the first birth of hidden poetry
Rushed you to the labour room
With happy face...closed eyes...full of satiety...
I know...
Yes...I know...

When you bit the end of your pen...
When you threw away your phone with disdain...
And which night became dawn
Washed completely by your sobs...
And which days you returned
With tired tears and yawns...
I know...
Yes...I know...

When you coiled your end of hair...
When you called me 'An intolerable liar'...
When you termed me 'A fugitive'...
I know it all dear...please believe!

I know what it meant to stop at a lane
And what effect could cause a whistle of a train
In the night most dark and somewhat eerie...
I know what I put into your bosom to carry...
Heavy sighs...hot lead feels...
Sudden going back...envelopes unsealed...
I know...
Yes...
I know it all...

Provence...a name of a place...and a sense...

Had I not been tired
Surely I would have admired
The wetstone slabs which did reflect
The lights from the closed gates
Of the houses on two sides of the road
And the silver glitz of the swords
Fixed in crosses on the wooden boards
On some walls of the place...called Provence...
Had I not been using contact lens...
I would have surely wiped my glasses
With the soft pinkish cloth a square piece
Kept in my trouser pocket without unease...
And looked again and again to get
The full meaning of the colors that spread
In different directions on the wetstones
I would have made a replica of the sword that shone
Like golden artefact so glamourous...
I would have for a wide angle shoot asked
The people...the curious bystanders...
At that place called Provence...
Where peace that evening came like a newly discovered sense...

Saturday, August 25, 2012

Universal being...

At the evening
when the cicadas sing
and the well of smoke
with white curls trees and vegetation soak
and the distant rumble of train
fill the plain with euphemism-
He would take a seat
on the porch...silently tweaked
by Nature's overwhelming magic...
He would become a disciple
avid...restful and perfect recipient...
Of all little changes and things unchanged
Of wide and far and deep and profound range
Of the eternal as metaphors dense
To him like sluggish rain came...

'I got to write them down
somewhere in suitable form...
In golden alphabets perhaps which time could never drown...'
So thinking he took up his feathery pen...
So thinking he got engaged into a chain
of thought and imagination intertwined
He filled white pages of his enlightened mind...

It took a whole long day
As long as a decade could in mirror on soul stay...
It took real out of him...
His inexhaustible self merged into
the universal being...

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

i am at Khowai...where are you?

'i am at Khowai...where are you dear?
the river is so soft and genteel here...
and the earth is saffron red
and the shadows the trees bred
on the post rain bosom wet
whisper peace and so much of love...
and a song like joy of living
here the breeze to me brings...

where are you dear?
missing it all...the heavenly splendour...
that lifts me up to the eternal moment
of ecstasy that only nature to a man can lend...

where are you locked up?
To which traffic snarl you stopped?
O dear! here dreams drop from rainbows straight...
here at Khowai...browny red
afternoon siesta of monsoon late
Has some visions of cowsheds sketched...
and the smoke from chullas simply catch
Setting sun's blushes unmatched...

Where are you sweetheart?
Fly to me...lightning fast
for the day is to come to an end...
For Khowai would into the dark soon bend...'

Belle de nuit

When the city returns from work
She adjusts her hair locks...
Just where the flyover takes the speed
To defy the printed limit
on blue boards that glow in dark...
She also arrives to stand...stark...
A lone lustrous figure on dazzle...
To stomach taunts...gestures...smoke from muzzle-
Of cars that don't bother to stop...

The city night descends quiet
As she waits eager for headlight
That would come and switch off
To take her to the exact spot
where a machine would for her churn
Coins and dough after a complete burn
of mechanical pulls and pushes...
of playing around shrubs and bushes...
Of human anatomy...hormonal desires
Of plunging full in mud and mires...

Then at the day break
She would invariably a long deep breath take...
As if her night has finally come
to give her tranquility some...
As the pigeons on lonely streets catch chaff
As the milkman with cans of life emerge...
She takes her refuge in sleep
And surely dreams of oceans deep
where dolphins play and sun paints joys
She in sleep with impossiblities toys...

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

why i seek you when it rains...

On such a rain filled day
Once on your lap of barley fields and hay
I discovered my love, lust and peace...
By the drops of water teased
We started a talk first
Laced with insatiable lust...
Then we got adrift
The motion of the needles swift
On my face...your lips
Took us to newest discoveries...
Of both mental and physical spaces
We glued ourselves to the utmost closeness...

The rainy day graduated in us
From lust we to another chapter passed
Of our co-written book...
And the long leaves of palm which shivered and shook
Dropped spherical dimensions of beads
On us providing different leads
To our story so multispatial
We filled our vials
of minds...to the brim...

Life and Time woven tight
In patterns of stitch work bright
With silk threads of peacock green
We caused birth of huge wide dreams...
We put words in pictures calm
We caught colors of the whole spectrum
Yet to be seen by naked mortal eyes
We our fabric of life with colors dyed...
Colors almost as old as Pre-Raphaelite
And modern as good as Urban Blight...
We reached two opposite ends
The extremities which only passion lends
To mortal bodies and immortal minds...
We  trespassed barriers of all kinds-
Of space...of Time...

So when
A day of rains
Come dripping slow through leaves
I seek your presence
In all my veins...




 

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